Well this was going to be a rant. Another "woe is me" post. Seems to come pretty easy for me. The past 2 days I've been listening to a series from North Point Ministries called The Waiting Room. I finished the last one tonight and all 3 sermons have really hit me pretty hard. I began to type a new post while listening to this last one but instead I just listened to what he had to say. I've never really liked the idea of waiting, I mean be honest you don't either. I feel like I've been waiting on God forever. Although I love these verses they've somewhat been not my favorite mostly because you have to wait. However tonight it was comforting. This whole time (about a year now-well since I've moved back home) I've done nothing but focus on the when and what. When am I going to move out, when am I going to get married etc. And it has completely worn me out. I am totally exhausted and drained and I feel as if God has forgotten me. Mostly this has come just these past 3-4 months. I feel 100% alone in this world, that no one whom I think are friends actually really care about me that God has just thrown me out here to fend for myself. I feel as if I'm drowning and no one even notices. But throughout the Bible and from what history shows us, "God has never forgotten His people and he's not going to begin with me. " Thank you Lord for that promise! Now if I could just cling to it daily. In the last sermon tonight he gave us a saying to speak out loud in the mornings or when we begin to focus on the when and what again. "When I don't know what to do, my hope is not in the when or what but on the Who" I need to cling to this. I need to cling to Ephesians 2:10 "For we are God's workmanship, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do." He had my life planned before I was born. Such a simple concept and yet so easy to forget.

The reason why God allows waiting is to prepare you-and me. What for, I'm not sure but hopefully I will be able to focus on Him and not on how I want an outcome to turn out. What would it look like if I was actually confident and believed the truth that God is preparing me? How would my attitude change from day to day? I'll end with these verses hoping that they will encourage you and praying that I'll cling and hold on to His promises..

"Do you not know? Have you not heard? The LORD is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth. He will not grow tired or weary, and his understanding no one can fathom. he gives strength to the weary, and increases power of the weak. Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles, they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint." Isaiah 40:28-31