I'm not sure what I want to say right now. I just know that my heart is heavy and that I feel as if I should encourage some of you on here. Since October my life has changed so much. I have changed a lot of my ways and the only way I was able to get rid of the negative things in my life was to completely give it all to Christ. I know it sounds cliche, real "Christiany" but I am being 100% real. A lot of the people I know and whom God has allowed me to meet in the past few years are mostly people from either BSU at Northeast & Southern and church. People whom I hope and pray are completely relying on God for everything. But it's hard. There have been so many mistakes in my life, mostly in the past 4 years that I would say I would regret but when I honestly sit down and think about it I don't regret the lessons I learned from those experiences. Am I proud of them? No. Should I have made wiser decisions? Most definitely but there is nothing I can do about it now except to accept it and move on, only of course with Christ. And I know that you may be dealing with a lot of stuff right now. Some things you may not think Christ can handle, or maybe it's just that you don't want Him to because you're afraid it will be a different outcome than you had planned. But what does it matter? If Christ is Life then why should it matter if your plans fall through? It's not your life! This isn't permanent! I honestly have no idea what I'm talking about, if I am making sense or if this even applies to anyone. But I want you to know something. I am praying for you. Right now. Whatever you are dealing with, whatever worries you or whatever hurt you are trying to suppress. I want you to rely on God. Get into His word. PRAY. Tell Him how you feel. Let Him LOVE you. But don't worry, I am telling myself the same thing. I just urge you to please follow Him. Where ever He wants you to go. I am going to make a list of verses and some excerpts of songs that mean a lot to me and I hope that you will find encouragement in them like I have. Please know that God loves you. That he Wants you, just where you are and how you are-maybe completely broken, maybe with a hardened and wounded heart or maybe just ready to give it to Him. Just please let Him move in you..

"But I believe always Always
Our Savior NEVER fails
Even when our hope is gone
God knows our pain and His promise remains
He will be with you always." 
Building 429 "Always"

"I will never leave you nor forsake you" Joshua 1:5b

"There's a Peace I've come to know
Though my heart and flesh may fail
There's an anchor for my soul and I can sing that it is well for my soul..
He is Risen from the dead and I will rise when He calls my name
No more sorrow no more pain
I will rise on eagle's wings before my God fall on my knees
I will rise I WILL RISE!" 
Chris Tomlin "I Will Rise"

"Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword? As it is written, 'We face death all day long, we are considered as sheep to be slaughtered.' No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through Him who loved us. For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons , neither present nor future nor any powers, neither height nor depth nor anything in all creation can separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord." 
Romans 8:35-39

"Restore to me the joy of your salvation and grant me a willing spirit to sustain me. 
Psalms 51:12

"The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and he saves those who are crushed in spirit."
Psalms 34:18

I am praying for you. That you will turn towards Christ and make Him priority over everything. There is nothing quite like it and I hope that you will seek Him daily.

I hope this makes sense and I pray it will encourage you along your journey..

CHRIST IS LIFE!
-Amy